From the moment I first saw you
I knew, our feet were planted on two different worlds.
I have never felt so far away from someone.

I could never reach out to you, or cross that line
and you would never even think to come down near my orbit.
We were separated by whole worlds apart
but I got to know you, every little detail you've given me the privilege to notice
and you never got to know me, the little things that tick me off or make me happy.

Though still, I studied you
so explicitly.
The more I did, the more I fell deeply.
With all my heart I spiralled down but I loved and love, I still.

At last, as once of my favourite poets once said,
'All I loved, I loved alone'
there I was completely aware that I was falling for you unconditionally one-sided.
Yet still I greedily took in your beauty in its every glorious form,
each time with all abandon.

At one point, as I understand you better
I started looking at you not only as a beautiful person on your own
but I followed you like a story being told
I saw you as this magnificent creature in which I was sure God has shone His love through you,
and what a blessing you are.

I remember thinking
this man deserves
so much of what he gives
to have, hold and have them returned
by someone as beautiful as he

and that someone was certainly not me.


Nelly, 2020

: Siti Suhaila binti Mohd Rafiah :
: 181197 || 1945 :
: Malaysia :
: ISFP :
: Astrophile || Pluviophile || Melophile :
: The stars has no meaning without its Starlight :

From the moment I first saw you
I knew, our feet were planted on two different worlds.
I have never felt so far away from someone.

I could never reach out to you, or cross that line
and you would never even think to come down near my orbit.
We were separated by whole worlds apart
but I got to know you, every little detail you've given me the privilege to notice
and you never got to know me, the little things that tick me off or make me happy.

Though still, I studied you
so explicitly.
The more I did, the more I fell deeply.
With all my heart I spiralled down but I loved and love, I still.

At last, as once of my favourite poets once said,
'All I loved, I loved alone'
there I was completely aware that I was falling for you unconditionally one-sided.
Yet still I greedily took in your beauty in its every glorious form,
each time with all abandon.

At one point, as I understand you better
I started looking at you not only as a beautiful person on your own
but I followed you like a story being told
I saw you as this magnificent creature in which I was sure God has shone His love through you,
and what a blessing you are.

I remember thinking
this man deserves
so much of what he gives
to have, hold and have them returned
by someone as beautiful as he

and that someone was certainly not me.


Nelly, 2020